"I Write to Give Myself Strength"-Joss Whedon

Sometimes I can't help but ask myself why do I really blog. It's not like I have a big audience that I need to "satisfy" or entertain. As a matter of fact, I think most people don't even care about what I write. Well as a matter of fact, I don't really care about what those other people think or say too. They may say I am just showing off or that I am a wanna-be writer or that I am exposing my family in this cyber world, I really do not care, in fact I have my own opinions about those other people too and whether they care or not about what I think about them I still don't care.

Anyway, back to the question why do I write or blog. Yesterday as I was spending my precious time daydreaming about life I came to realize that  the reason I blog was primarily for myself. Of course, I do this for our close friends and family who live FAR from us. Some of our family members especially on my husband's side haven't had the chance to meet Aidan so this is our way of helping them get to know Aidan as he is growing up. But then sometimes there are really just some days that I just need to write.

We live in a town which is literally located in the middle of nowhere, we don't have any family members to visit and we know a very few people. It's not like when we were in Hawaii or in the Philippines where our days are pretty much occupied. In Hawaii, we go to school, work and the beach is always there. In the Philippines, I have my family, malls everywhere, spots to visit and the pool in our condominium. In here, there's not much to do add to that is the fact that I barely just started learning how to drive and I still have to wait for a month before I can hopefully get a license. So you see I'm pretty much stuck at home, whining about this dreary winter weather. Writing is what keeps my sanity. I know it's not like I write good or I write cohesively. As a matter of fact most of the time my thoughts on my blog entries are all over the place. But then writing entertains me, it gives me something to look forward to, it gives me a huge break after chasing and trying to entertain my SUPER active 18 months old bebe. This may sound weird but like reading, writing for a short time pulls me away from my reality which is the reality of a messy house full of dirty clothes, dishes and baby bum. When things seems to be too overwhelming, writing becomes my escape. Then after that short time I feel refreshed, ready to face the needs and MOSTLY the wants of my little family of giants.

Another reason why I blog is that it helps me keep track on the things that happen to our little family. It provides a way for me to document those simple things in our life that we will forever cherish. As our son is growing up we came to realize (and is still trying to embrace) how fast time flies. It literally just slips on our hands, we still can't believe how in 18 months our little fragile baby have transformed into this wrecking machine haha, just kidding but you know what I mean. 

Writing keeps what the mind fails to keep and life is too wonderful to be forgotten.  While we're young we think that our memory will always be in perfect shape, but it's not and it will never be. Personally, writing helps me to relive the sweet memories of the past and when things seems to be falling apart what I have written serves as my teacher.  I love this quote by Anaïs Nin  “We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospect.” Writing is really a treasure especially in this world where some people enjoy having a 140 character limit in their thoughts.