Whines

I assume we, mothers are all allowed to complain whine about our life once in a while. Before anything else I want to make it clear, I love my life, I love being a mom to an active 8 months old little baby boy and I love being a wife to a 6'2 ft tall young man but I am no super human woman, I also get tired and I have my own limitations.  Jesse and I have been married for 18 months now, throughout that period we somehow have learned our individual responsibilities in the house.  But now that we have Aidan it feels like my our responsibilities are sky high.  Sometimes I feel like I could sleep 24 hours straight if only I have the chance.

 I have to say that there have been a lot of people who have been very skeptical about me getting married at an early age, people who have been very doubtful of my decision, people who at some point may have thought about the immaturity of my decision. I can imagine the now saying "I told you so", "you should have listened to me", "now you know what I mean".  I am lying if I say life has been easy breezy for our little family or my life has been everything I expected it to be.  I have to admit it wasn't, there was a lot of loopholes, a lot of rough rides into the crazy river of life.

This is absolutely not the life that I have planned or imagined 5 years ago.  I had so many hopes, my plan was while in college I will do my best to find the perfect internship which if everything works smoothly will give me my "dream job" and then after a few more years I will take the Foreign Service exam here in the Philippines (which is something I have always been dreaming of).  Getting married was completely out of my plan.  But then instead of finding the perfect internship while in college I found the perfect young man to whom I got married for all time and eternity and then instead of getting my dream job I got the most wonderful job a woman can have and that is being a mother.

Behind all my daily whining about life I am grateful for everything that I have now especially for my husband and my son.  Being a wife and a mother is not only physically demanding, at some point it can drain everything that is in you.  But then once you see the smile in your little boy's face, once you hear the words I love and thank you from your husband everything seems so perfect.  You will soon forget all the sleepless nights you have and all the other efforts you have exerted to make a day right.  I know that I am blessed to have these two men in my life.

People also told me that once I get married that's it I won't be able to enjoy my life to its fullest. Well with what I am experiencing right now I can confidently say that they are all wrong, I have never enjoyed my life the way that I am enjoying it right now and I will NEVER EVER regret getting married to the love of my life and also having the cutest baby at this point of our life.